December 12, 2009

All is Well

 All is well and shall be well.

If I truly believed this,
the pain in my throat would subside
and I'd stop being afraid
of always being alone
of always living in regret
I'd forgive myself completely
for the harm I've caused others
and myself

I'd stop the doubt and worry
stop putting energy into my fears
remembering abandonments and exiles
betrayals and shame
I'd stop picking at the scabs
so the wounds could heal
my shoulder wouldn't have to ache
I could lay down my burdens
and other people's burdens
and allow my mind
to wander free

If I truly believed
I wouldn't to anything at all
If I truly believed
I wouldn't do anything differently
Except I'd stop struggling upstream
I'd gently float free

Time to start believing.